About the things you think you want to do and your weaker self that leads you to do things you don't want to do

It keeps happening to me.
First of all, my new year's resolutions:
- take it more easy, don't stress yourself in your free-time
- read "Die Zeit" every week and don't pile the issues on the bench for half a year
- read the books that are waiting to be opened for the first time forever in your bedroom
- make your job a thing you like to do, whatever it takes

Well, as for the first resolution. It starts to work out, I am home more often and I even started to use my couch. As for all the other things, here we are with the problems.
I really want to read more and watch less TV. Not that I usually sit and watch, it's more background noise for some other activity. After all, what the TV is offering is not very attractive to me, but I think everyone agrees with me. I wonder who likes to watch some b-class celebrities trying to take a bath with 40,000 cockroaches in the Australian outback or some TV judge to come to a verdict about some even worse actors? Not to speak of the soaps, that all have the same stories, the good and the bad guys, the big love, kidnapping, failed marriages, abortions and all the things that happen to regular people within two years. Yeah, sure.
But I wasn't going to talk about the bad shows on TV, I wanted to point out, that I want to read more and somehow end up, watching TV or - a little better - DVD instead of reading or doing other things.
Why is that? Have I gotten so lazy outside of work that I can't do what I want to because the atmosphere never seems right?

Well, this weekend the atmosphere was right and I am a lot happier now on Sunday night. I didn't miss watching TV and I am happy I got over my weaker self and did what I wanted to do. And I intend to keep going in that direction. I like it even more than I imagined when I made the resolutions! :)

Keep reading, everyone. It's worth it!